Visit from my angel

I had to start a new thread because this is different. I may still need the other thread, but right now, the way I'm feeling, I'm thinking no.

The other night, I stood awaiting my shower to warm and a feeling came over me like none other. I first was saying, “I miss you Linus” and then I realized, I don’t have to miss him. He gave me every ounce of love he could be and what he was had become me. How could I miss a part of me, when it was still with me? I realized that my love would never end, and that I would never not love him, but as the cats were in the kitchen, I felt Linus’s tail against my leg. I looked down, and didn’t see him, but that didn’t take away the feeling. I think Linus was saying “see you later”. Until we meet again. Deep serenity, comfort, and relief flooded me, along with an elation I hadn’t truly felt in a long time. Everything is going to be okay. I still have Linus with me. Because he gave me everything that was his, and I am him, and we are all together. Yet, even though this may be his “see you later” I still hope I will see him in my dreams. After all, I loved him most.

But don't think that will stop me from our quest, Linus. I will get the book published. You will be proud of your mom. We will make a difference. Then someone else's other half will NOT have to die so early, or have so much pain, from that disease. I plan on making the difference.

Does this mean he's left for the Bridge now? Do you think that's what this means, since he came to visit me?

I'm so excited and relieved I think I could cry, and maybe not sleep. We'll see. I'm going to go see the Star Wrecks movie - an Alvin and the Chipmunks parody of Star Trek - and we'll see how long this feeling lasts. I wonder if Linus would have liked that too. Maybe there will be enough ships zooming by and stars streaming.

I will love you Linus until the end of time.

Finished with Linus's Blanket

now to publish...

Literary agents out there? Anywhere? Ones that might want my book?